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I'm feeling... (Oh, great! this is going to be one of those sappy "Feely" Posts!) Well, maybe, I don't really know until I start one of these things exactly how it's going to pan out, I just start knowing the general direction in which I want to go, and I've found that I do that In most aspects of my life, not just my blogging, I mean, I literally do that with my life. I've chosen a general direction but I don't really know how it's going to pan out and I don't really try that hard to control the course That I'm on. Sometimes, I think that I should try harder to do just that but in the end, I'm not really interested in the big picture. Correction: I don't Understand the big picture. I am content with stringing the little pieces together in order to scrap together something that looks like a life. I like that about myself. I hate that about myself. But it doesn't matter because That's the way that I am and I'm not going to fight something as natural as vision.

Granted, sometimes, (Now, to be exact) I am having trouble coping with my... I don't know.. Personality? Status? Being? Whatever it is that is giving me fits as we speak is basically a mixture of self-doubt, jealousy, the inadequacy of my personality and I just want to make it clear that it's just bloody awful, I hate it. However, these feelings are to be expected in a young person, probably everyone but especially a right out of high school human being. The fact that I know these feelings are natural and okay is the worst part of this whole situation, as young people we are put into unreasonable positions when just a few months ago, we weren't allowed to do anything. I mean, I don't like having voices everywhere telling me Chop Chop! You're lagging behind!" NOBODY DOES. Although some people work well with that kind of stimulus, a lot of us not only don't work well, we reject it and run the other way. And this post is basically for those people, people like me whom don't want to rebel against the system or anything, we just want it to be okay to be slow, to take our own sweet time.

See, right now I have no idea where the rest of this post is going to go, I thought I had a good solid direction but now my logic is failing me and I'm on a time limit, what am I going to do with the next paragraph? I don't know... Let's see.

Just because you're a little bit behind everybody, okay, like miles behind the rest of the world does not mean that you're doing it wrong. You can't do it wrong! It's life! Everything ends the exact same way and it's fine not to live in the same lane as you're supposed to in society because your speed has nice qualities to it to, it's the lane that you're going to travel so you might as well enjoy it, learn it, explore its possibilities, it's yours, no two peoples lanes are the same and just because they cross does not mean they are going the same speed at all, or that the surrounding area is the same, it just means that two lanes (Or More) are going in a simpler direction, which, is special, but it's not nearly as special or as rare as the road your traveling.

Don't try to get on other's roads/lanes, just don't do it because that takes out all of the fun out of the journey, and plus it's tiresome to try to match another human's speed whether it's higher or lower than yours, it will only take away from your experience and that's the most important thing in the world, to finally make it to the end of the road, wherever that is, and be able to think back at all the unique things in this world that only you saw, many people may have seen the same thing as you but nobody saw exactly how you did , and that, my friends, is a beautiful and hopeful thing to look forward to every morning when you start your day. You just have to remind yourself, especially on the difficult days, that your about to experience things that day that no one else ever has, not exactly. So, if you worry that you're not unique, remember, you're angle and views of the many things in life will always be just yours.

As tempting as it is to try to move over into someone elses lane, try to resist because if you do, you're gonna miss some amazing things that were already in your lane and you're taking away from that person's focus and privacy, which every human being is entitled to, you wouldn't want someone pushing into your view so leave them be and treat their pace with the respect that you would want from them. It's simple courtesy.

So, relax and enjoy the pace that you're currently on, there's lots to see and love, but most importantly, don't ever let anyone tell you that you're doing life wrong because you're a little bit behind them. You're doing great.